20051031

SIGH ! i really need to get some idiotic stuff off my chest la !!!!! stupid..my stepfather is driving me mad man...so mad that i cannot be bothered to not listen to wat kinda RUBBISH he's talking EVERYDAY !!!! stupid laa...everyday say wat he gonna die soon..den its like every sentence he make will be against either me or my mum or his daughters laa.... !!!!

WALAO !!! he still got two small daughters to take care of u know [ excluding me ] !!! so fast talking about dying....so idiotically irresponsible laa !!! he wanna die sooner so that my mum can handle the two small ones herself ahh...he wait long laa...!!!! they still got a long way in their lives man...and hes talking about death and scolding vulgarities in front of them....how can he be a father man ?!?!? how in the world can he be my stepfather ?!?!?!!! den my stepfather asked me on sunday whether i prefer them to get divorce....of coz dunwan laaa... !!!!! who in the world will agree ??? only his elder daughter will agree laa...of coz she will agree loh...she didnt go through the things that i went through in my thirteen years of life !!!!!!!! but im used to it anyway..so ya..but i really dunwanna go through it AGAIN..

sigh...dunwanna talk about it liao...i type until my hand pain..but i felt SO SO much BETTER la...but still...u know...


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so sorry ..very angry tats why i post until like tat...sorry =(

BIGfish ; 10:45 PM(:

20051026

got my overall results back alreadi..it's SO bad la..
eng - B4
chi - B3
maths - A2
sci - C6
geog - B4
hist - C6
lit - C6
d&t - B4
he - E8
art - B4

must really buck up next year.. haiz...

hehe..today played the keyboard since after recess until skool end..play until my hand numb..very tired..
played for two sessions..sec 1s & 2s and sec 3s..den i missed the mother tougue quiz in the CC...so good leh..hahahz...but very tired..

it was really a priviledge to play with tommy ong they all leh..hahaz..muz thank mrs lee for putting me in the band LAST MINUTE.. without any practice..hahaz...thats mrs lee ah..im always multi-tasking for her..hahahz..

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Lord, thank you for everything you've done for each and everyone of us on this earth..thank you for sending your son to die on the cross just for us..Lord, we are the reason that you gave your life..we are the reason that you suffered and died..to the world that was lost..you gave all that you could give..juz to show us the reason to live..Lord..help me live my life more meaningfullly each day..that i can be firm in Your name and be still and know that You are God..and only through You can i be saved..

BIGfish ; 5:27 AM(:

20051025

FINALLY, exams are over..hahaz..but i got back my results today..it was not VERY good..but also not VERY bad..but i really can see the BIG difference between my mid-year and end-of-year..i felt so..erm..how to describe ahh ?? i regretted not studying MORE la..sigh..juz have to pray that i can go into either 2-2 or 2-3 next year..and not 2-4 or 2-5..

got drenched today again..totally wet. i went into CMS room to practice for some programmes for tmr..den was like shivering inside..so cold..den after that..got absolutely no more strength ta play the keyboard or the guitar..so i sat down there..staring into space..for more than half an hour...so weird.. have been like tat these few days la..stoning when im supposed to do something else. at like 4 plus..i wanted to leave the skool..den cant..coz my bag is in the office..with staffs having meeting..so i stoned until 5 plus..den left the skool..oh well..i gtg sleep le.. ;)

BIGfish ; 10:37 PM(: