HERSwithGOD.|

20060329

AHHHHHHHHH !! why in the world did i ended up with such a teacher ??! walao......stupid..spoil my happy day ! BLEHH !! from morning 7.30 started scolding my class...just because a few of us didnt sign the consent form for some stupid talk..stupid la can ! den scolded us one by one...she scolded me and bk something i feel hurt the most..she said wat..."you two help out during chapel and singspiration...but if u wanna serve God, u must show your right attitude with man and with God. if u have the wrong attitude, den u have no right to serve God." wat crap la ! walao....we were like ok la...you shall play the keyboard and sing yourself later...stupid wan !!! den after that her chinese period...scolded me again...dunno for wat stupid reason again ! den was like during chapel..i played finish..den went down the stage and i just saw one of my friends den we sat down. i didnt know it was another class la..stupid ! den after that got scolded in front of the whole sec 2s..haiz. ok la...my face was super duper black that time..ya..so carried the things down to the christian ministry room...den me and tania started crying..cos got scolded also...ya...den sat down there and cry lor. joyce and bk were like comforting us..hmm...den elaine came and saw us crying..den prayed for us..den went up to class already...i was still sniffing away la...haiz....cant my teacher just be more kind in her words? verbal scoldings sometimes hurts people more than physical ones..those that hurt the heart will take even longer to heal, or even never...):

BIGfish ; 9:01 PM(:

20060325

im happy because i have a reason to smile...but i feel like crying.

why? i have no idea...i cant imagine people getting mad and angry over one piece of small paper...somemore its that type super thin wan. no important information on it...den can quarrel until like tat. aye..have you ever thought of us? wat do you think huh? wanna get married den married ah...wanna divorce den divorce ah?! wat crap ! >.<
haiz...i really dunwanna go through another time of this....serious...i have forgotten the pain long ago...and i have absolutely no idea if the pain is still there..it's like already numb to me...i dunwanna be reminded of the pain mann...if i can, how i wish i could call you ' dad '..

BIGfish ; 11:19 PM(:

20060307

WoOt ~ was fun today..haha..even though im sick...hahaz...went out with bk and wenliang...was fun la...but still coughing away..
went and watched Rumour has it hahahz...so few people in the theatre. we were like in the middle, den in front nobody. den all three of us put our legs in front. hahahz...by the end of the show, we were lying down..hahaha. it was so comfortable lo..tat i almost fell asleep ((: haha..
den after tat went for bowling den go home le...heeee (:

BIGfish ; 7:13 PM(:

20060305

Hee...nice song !~ ((: i love it mann ~

Who am I ?
That the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt

Who am I ?
That the bright and morning star
Would choose to light the way
Of my ever wondering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because ofwhat I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
a vapor in the wind
Still you hear me when I'm calling
Lord You catch me when I'm falling
And you've told me who I am
I am yours

Who am I ?
That the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
And watch me rise again
Who am I ?
That the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
and calm the storm in me
Not because of who I am
but because of what you've done
Not because of what I've done
but because of who you are

Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
Cause I am Yours..

BIGfish ; 10:47 PM(: